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[warhistory]

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text, un:meathead [not a misfire]

[allyourfeels]

Hey, it took me forever to figure out how to move files from my regular phone to the device from here, and once I was done I realized you probably could've done it way faster, so I spent like a day and a half feeling like an idiot, and THEN these things started acting up and after I accidentally sent like 3 sex google questions to random people who super didn't deserve it I decided the internet is Bad Actually and maybe no one should ever use it.

BUT I GOT OVER IT! So here's the songs I got, it's from a playlist my bf made me when we started hanging out.

[ attached are the following songs:
1. "Can't Feel My Face" - The Weeknd
2. "Hard Out Here" - Lily Allen
3. "Here" - Alessia Cara
4. "Strawberry Swing" - Frank Ocean
5. "Grade 8" - Ed Sheeran
6. "Water Under the Bridge" - Adele
7. "You're Not the Only One" - Jamie Cullum
8. "Super Trouper" - ABBA ]

Anyway, if you're not the person I promised music to, then be thankful you're getting music and not sex google questions. Also, if you can try forwarding it to @ proelium, that'd be cool.

[warhistory]

( ah.

he hadn't noticed much time passing between now and their previous conversation, but he supposes it has been several days, hasn't it? well. dire doesn't mind the wait, and he does give it several minutes (because he's listening, starting the playlist to get a good feel for it) before he responds. )

The last several days seem to have been hard on many people. I am sorry that these devices have made things more difficult on you, but I did receive this.

Thank you.

[allyourfeels]

Cool! That was the first try too. I was so ready to start hitting random people.


LMK if you like it. idk how to be objective about stuff Adam put together for me.

[warhistory]

Music is self-expression.

I could tell you the science behind it, the tempo, the beat. But what truly matters is how it makes you feel.

I'm enjoying it.

[allyourfeels]

I can't listen to it anymore without getting depressed. But I'm happy to share.

[warhistory]

Would you tell me about him?

[allyourfeels]

Sure, if you wanna hear it. I guess if I get all weepy my chips won't judge me.

[warhistory]

I wouldn't judge you either.

It's okay to be sad.

[allyourfeels]

Yeah, I know. But it's kind of a slippery slope, you know? I let myself be sad about Adam, then I'm sad about my friends and my family, and then I'm sad about being stuck in this place.

And then I forget how cool it is that I'm meeting people from other worlds because I'm just sad about the one I'm not in.

[warhistory]

You can feel both excited to meet others from new places, and sad about the things that you have lost.

But I do understand. Negative emotions can feel significantly stronger than positive ones, in the moment.

[allyourfeels]

It's like mixing colors. Negative feelings kinda overwhelm the good ones, so if you have like, pink and purple, then you still get a nice color. But if you add gray or black you just end up with a shitty brown mush.

Anyway, Adam's awesome. He's smart and funny and he can give a whole ass class on pretty much any subject.

[warhistory]

You said you were an empath, correct? Therefore your need for someone more emotionally balanced?

[allyourfeels]

Yeah, for the sex stuff.

But Adam's not. I mean, he's my age, he has normal high school guy feelings. But his feelings just kinda fit with mine? Most people overwhelm me, so I don't know what's me and what's them. With Adam I know, like matching puzzle pieces.

[warhistory]

You are compatible in a way that doesn't create difficulties with your extraordinary ability.

I was referring to your comparison on emotions. The colors. I appreciate your description of it.

Adam sounds wonderful.

[allyourfeels]

He is.

My therapist taught me visualization exercises and kinda guided me through finding stuff that's close enough? It's not perfect cause it's a whole other sense. But like, curiosity is prickly and concern is warm and relief feels like ocean waves.

And once I have words for it and colors and sensations, it's easier to identify that specific thing.

[warhistory]

I'm glad they were able to help teach you tools that you found useful.

When did you meet Adam? Does he know about your ability?

[allyourfeels]

I met Adam at school, we're in a bunch of classes together, and his feelings were super loud and distracting. When I told my therapist she said I should try talking to him, so I did and we hit it off.

I didn't tell him about my thing for the longest fucking time, and when I did it was a whole fucking mess. He was embarrassed and I was embarrassed and we got into a yelling match. But then we actually talked and cleared it up and started dating.

[warhistory]

Louder than others, but still distinctively
separate from yours?

[allyourfeels]

YEAH, yeah, that's it exactly! I don't always know where a feeling is coming from, but I always know what stuff is his.

I mean, I can kinda tell when I'm familiar with people, like my family all has their own colors. But Adam's are clearer and I could tell before I actually knew him.

[warhistory]

Is there a particular reason for it?

[allyourfeels]

Not as far as I know. I've met people here who feel kinda like that a bit, but it's not the same.

[warhistory]

Perhaps it was meant to be.

[allyourfeels]

That's a nice thought.

I don't know though. If fate were a thing I wouldn't be here, or at least not without him.

[warhistory]

Fate is a heavy concept.
Natural compatibility may be closer to the truth, especially if you are experiencing that same strength in others here.

[allyourfeels]

That sounds right. Like, idk, a voice you find pleasant or something. You don't have to fall for whoever has it but it's still nice to hear.